and it hurts with every heart beat..

So this last week we have been searching half asrsedly (lol i dont think thats a word). Not found much yet but have looked at a few and only been into one.

I got a letter from Alexs mum. Of course i sent her one first but wow, she actually sent one back. Surprised!
She wants to meet up and see Briahna. Im nervous actually!

wah wah wah.
Dont know what else to say im really quote boring.

"What you dont understand you can make mean anything.."

Mums gone. I cried.

Im not entirely sure what to do now. I guess maybe look after my baby?
Yeah, ill do that.

Only 7 months and shes back for Briahna's birthday though.

Drop dead gorgeous.

No, not me.

Okay so today i slept till 1! oops! Briahnas sleeping patterns are as fucked up as mine! Into bed late then up late. Its so annoying. Not sure how to change it. I put her to bed at 7 and she wakes up a couple hours later then is awake till anytime between 10pm and 1am! Gah!

Today we are going to Newmarket to shop i think. Going to Tony and Guy to get hair products. Fun!

Other than that im boring as.

The fan hasnt been turned off in a week.

Today we went for a swim. First time this summer!

I wish i could take b, but no one will let me. Plunket says no so that means im not aloud. Apparently i have to wait till after her 5 month shots. Fair enough though! But soon it will be too cold and soon she wont fit her new swim suit she got for christmas.

Mum and Aunty have been back from England for what, like 3 weeks now. They go back in a week. I dont know what i will do when they go. I guess i have to just handle it but fuck i dont want them to leave.. It seems like such a short time that they have been here and now its over and they wont be back till B's first birthday. Thats an AGE away. AGGE.

Briahna is a little mushroom. But a beautiful one. Shes growing so damn fast, she will be crawling in no time! God shes starting solids! What next?

Shes found her feet! Its the cutest thing!



I HAVE to save money once we are settled in a new house. I mean if it takes me getting a part time job then i will have to. I will buy my ticket as soon as i can and that will make me save more cause i dont want to be poor over there. Plus i need to have saved up a certain amount to show whoever they are that i wont be stuck over there or bludge off their government or whatever.

Anyways, bubs is asleep. I shall go find something else to do as ive been sitting on here for ages.

I think i need a hobby!